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Tuesday, November 8, 2011 || 9:51 PM
I went walking today. I like walking.
- I like listening to Eliza's dad's songs when I'm walking. Haha. Old people music, she said
I turned off my computer because no one was on msn or free to talk or whatever, so I was feeling just a little bit (ahem) lonely. And so so restless. And kind of down. I had nothing to do, so I wanted to go outside and walk with myself. Or whatever. Because solitary walks are kind of relaxing. (weirdo)
I walk with my iPod.
Anyway, I turned off my computer and looked outside and subsequently freaked out because it was so dark already. But my laptop was already shutting down... and I really wanted to get of the house and do something. So I left quickly. (WHAT A NINJA)
It was kind of cold. I walked through Central Park not knowing if I wanted a longish walk or a short one, as my mother would be getting home soon and it was cold and dark and whatnot.
Central Park has so many pathways leading off to different streets and whatever. I sort of just wandered. After a while, as it got darker, I got a little apprehensive about this whole idea of walking in the dark. I kind of (not really) had an idea of where I was walking, but with the darkness, everything seemed different.
Predictably, I then whipped out my handy dandy
notebook iPhone to check the map. Only, it didn't work. Sad face.
So I walked just a little faster.
Finally I got to Lincoln Park. I slowed a bit and then saw an outline of a man sitting on a bench. I looked around at all the bushes in the shadows and thought about how easy it would be for someone to just rush out from the darkness and stab me. I got really scared (wimp). I sped up quite a bit (I couldn't even properly see the ground where I was walking) until I got to Manhattan (RELIEF). There were street lamps again!
This point was probably the lowest point of my walk. As in my mood was sort of.. um. Melancholy. (Oh awks. Sorry)
My phone dinged. As in I got a text. Once again, I whipped it out all excited and stuff. Someone wanted to talk to me! Oops. Sad face once more?
I walked really really slow. Like more slowly than I usually do (hahaha). I took my phone out again, stared at it and decided to text my Jellybean. I was dispirited and kind of needy (ew isn't there a better word than that...), that's why.
I walked even slower after that. Some times even stopping fully. Would you text me back? Slow walk walk walk. Very very very very slow walk walk walk.
Phone dings.
Confident this time, I checked my phone, and sure enough, it was you. Big big waaaay big smile.
I believe I even skipped.
Wasn't even that dark anymore.
Kept walking, a little faster this time. It was getting colder. But I decided to take the long way home.
And then, well, I got home, all refreshed from my walk.
You have no idea how happy you can make me.
With just one text.
Or just by seeing your name on my screen.
Happy face. With teeth.
