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Friday, January 20, 2012 || 9:37 PM
After an entire day of pleasing people and keeping up that bright smile, I go home and crash.
I think that's when the more negative parts of my mind begin to come out.
I feel like I'm really needy and selfish.
I'm irritable and unkind.
Impatient and short-tempered.
Greedy.
You won't ever see these parts of me.
I may jokingly show some of these characteristics..
But if you honestly ask people that know me, I doubt that they'd describe me as such. Or well, that's what I'd like to think. (I think I'm right, though ;))
I do have these adverse characteristics/emotions, though, especially when I'm at home. Especially when my parents are home.
Otherwise, nobody really sees these in me. And this is not because I'm "hiding" myself or "pretending" to be someone I'm not or something.
It's just that I know these are negative characteristics - characteristics of a bad person.
I am not a bad person, therefore I choose to never display these characteristics outwardly.
I think basically everyone has varying degrees of negativity inside themselves. It's just whether or not we choose to express them is what makes us who we are.
Notice I said varying degrees.
But my main point is,
Honestly, I'm just craving a little attention.
I'd like to be spoiled a bit too sometimes.