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do you know what i want?
Tuesday, May 1, 2012 || 8:50 PM
Ho hum.
I guess I have trouble making decisions.
Or at least, when other people will be affected by them, anyway.
If I'm just deciding for myself, really, I'm fine haha.
I'm not exactly indecisive: I know what I want.
"Umm, I dunno, what do you want?"
I know what I want.
I'm what you'd call a people-pleaser.
In those long moments that I take in making my decision, whether it be deciding which restaurant to go to [ ;) ] and what to eat there, or which movie to watch, or what to do today..., all that's going through my head is Will others enjoy this?
So I refrain from suggesting or (God forbid:) choosing anything just in case anybody is too nice to say that they don't want that.
Whenever I am stuck giving a suggestion (funny choice of words here, huh) I'm always the first to shoot it down.
"Oh, but we don't have to if you guys don't like it; we could do something else, I don't mind."
Otherwise, I just try to think of what other people may like and then choose that.
I don't usually force my suggestions on other people. I don't usually say No to things I don't want when others suggest it.
I suppose I'd rather leave myself a little unsatisfied than leave others like that.
It's not really that I'm selfless either. This isn't really an "admirable" trait of mine.
In all honesty, I can see how it might be annoying.
