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it does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live
Sunday, June 24, 2012 || 11:52 PM
There had been an entire, extensive phase in my life where I was completely dedicated to my past and my memories.
There was a whole part of my life where I insisted on clinging to my past and insisting to myself that what was true then was still true now.
I missed what was, and I wished I was back.
However, I realized this:
It may have been true that I had loved them back them; however, I realized that I loved neither the people anymore.
How could I? People change.
I simply did not know them anymore.
Yet, what I felt was strong, the pull was strong. And I knew then,
what I was feeling was an extreme infatuation with the memory that I had of those people - not, in fact, them. I did not love them. That memory did not exist in real life anymore. It was no longer true.
I think it is important to let go of the past.
Stop clinging to what was, because now it is not.
Your memories of whoever or whatever is just that. It is just a memory.
People change.
People change.
You no longer know them.
I was obsessed.
Yet I knew myself well enough to know that.
I loved a memory and nothing more.