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E. P. Eliot
Monday, April 22, 2013 || 12:29 PM
April is the loveliest month, revealing
Sunshine out of thick clouds, mixing
Chilly winds and warm air, kindling
New buds with spring rain.
Saturday, April 20, 2013 || 9:54 PM
Your face imprinted on my eyelids
You are the last thing I see before I fall to dreams
Your name the first sound that rings in my ears when I wake
You are my morning song
summertime come
Friday, April 19, 2013 || 1:55 PM
Somehow I have it in my mind that once summer is here, my heaven on earth will make itself known to me. Somehow I seem to think that once summer arrives, all my problems will be solved, all my stress will go away, and 20 pounds will drop.
I will be free.
Summertime come.
sharing my happiness
Tuesday, April 16, 2013 || 12:22 PM
I've found that when I care about someone, I want to share my happiness with them. I want to show you what makes me happy, in the hopes that you may find happiness there as well.
I've also found that I'm not alone in this. I notice it too when others share themselves with me, and it makes me happy. It makes me happy when you try to find what it is that makes me happy. Like you are searching for my happiness before I think to share it.
Which is good, I think.
Monday, April 15, 2013 || 9:00 PM
The only thing left substantial enough for me to feel is my heavy heart.
Besides that, I am empty.
Everything is different now, everything is
I no longer feel as if everything is ending, but that everything has ended.
This whole year, now to this moment,
we've crashed to a stop.
boredom
|| 8:09 PM
I feel uneasy
when I am left to wallow in my own thoughts.
What might I discover in my own head? What might I over interpret?
I can enjoy my own company, usually. I have no problem with that.
But
occasionally, I will feel a little downcast from out of nowhere.
Bye bye
Thursday, April 11, 2013 || 10:58 PM
Once again, we're nearing the end of an academic year. The feeling is very similar to last year. There are people I will be leaving behind, people who will be leaving me behind.
My friends right now.
But next year, who knows?
Leaving residence is like leaving high school. I'm leaving these people and this community, our family.
When I first camee to university and moved to residence, I knew that I could never live my old life again. Though that sounds so melodramatic, it's completely true. I'll never have a grade school life again. No set schedule everyday for school, a different home to come back to. A different family that I'll come home to.
From here on out, it's Elizabeth leading the adult Elizabeth life.
shining future !
|| 11:52 AM
There are a lot of memories that we share
that we create
that I cherish.
non-existent university stress
Tuesday, April 2, 2013 || 11:22 AM
I've been reading my blog posts from around this time last year. My health was really bad, I guess, and I was very emotionally stressed and tense. I was so worried... if this is the way my body reacts to stress, how much worse off will I be in university? It was a huge worry of mine.
But now, I am so much better, stress wise. My stress level has dropped significantly especially these past months. Removing those pressures and those negative influences, the source of my troubles and anxiety has really helped me. For the first time in years, I feel genuinely happy.
