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what lies ahead
Sunday, September 29, 2013 || 1:04 AM
The future
I think we try not to think about it.
What am I doing in school? What am I studying for?
I think we all have dreams,
which right now are quite unrealistic.
There's that fear of not finding a job. Living at home forever because you can't afford to live on your own.
Today, I went grocery shopping in Kensington Market. I bought apples, a bag of bok choi - in seriousness - the essentials. I noticed large plastic boxes of strawberries right next to me at my spot in line. They smelled delicious, those bright, red strawberries, and so sweet. I looked at the price - $3.50 - and hesitatingly picked up a box to inspect it. Up close they were every bit as tempting as from an arms length. They were perfectly ripe. I'll buy a box..! ... but I'd already spent so much money this week. Strawberries are a luxury I cannot afford. Huh. Bye bye darling box of strawberries.
It was a new feeling, this was.
Or, perhaps, not being qualified for a job that you really want. That's the fear I have. I have to start now, to build my network and experience and whatever else I need.
But I try not to think about it.