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hateful scar
Wednesday, October 9, 2013 || 2:22 PM
I think it's too deep
It's cut too deep.
Too long
As much as I thought it was fading
It's still here, tucked away in the background
and yet
It will flare up again if provoked
chapter 2
Sunday, October 6, 2013 || 11:55 PM
I live in two worlds
of the same metropolis.
One is the world where my oldest and closest friends live, where my family is, where my roots lay. It's home. I feel free; the space is open. My life is slow and leisurely.
The world in which I drive with the windows rolled down and the sun roof open. Creating my own wind and breeze accelerating wherever, as young people do.
This is the world where I live boundless and ready to explore the world, to do anything, and dream of a new adventure.
This other world, I am surrounded by people. I am surrounded by new acquaintances, new friends, faces I recognize but hesitate to place. Here, I cannot drive.
Instead, I walk; my feet can take me anywhere. New discoveries lay hidden at every corner, waiting to be chanced upon by me. There is always something to look at.
Here, I am doing, not dreaming. Everything happens at the snap of your fingers. There are so many opportunities at my fingertips, available to me if only I choose to take them. I want to try everything, I want to experience everything. I cannot possibly live long enough to do everything I want to here.
In each environment, I am a different person leading a different life.
I live in two worlds that are two worlds apart.